Sugarholic

Hello. I am a sugarholic.

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While I continue to read The Sweet Poison Quit Plan by David Gillespie – I had “that thought”. The “I’m addicted thought”.

The same thought I had before I gave up alcohol and cigarettes… Before I began the looong process of giving up. Oh, the dread I feel now. Because I am good at giving things up. But. But my giving up process involves overindulging till I can’t take it anymore and THEN stopping for good. The overindulging phase is ugly. The chain smoking that I did! Drinking at least half a bottle of wine a night. Every night. When I knew how ill I felt the next day.

Still, I do know. Once I’ve had “that thought” there is no going back. Sigh.